I have been going through a lot of changes lately. I lost my mother after a long illness. I have a huge hole in my heart and I am not sure what to do with my life right now. I lost my home because I couldn't pay the rent without a job.....my mother was my job. I had to give up my dog and that really hurt, but I understood why-I couldn't afford the pet deposit anyways. A friend of mine came down from 10 hours away to take care of me for a week after my Mama passed away. I was then hurt by this person; I have been through a lot.
I have a lot of things going on right now and all I am really trying to do is make it through one day at a time. There are days when I don't want to get out of bed or do anything. I need to try and find a job, so I have been working pretty hard on that for the last few days. I realize everyone has their own burdens to bare, so I try not to be a bother with my problems to other people. I am dealing with all of this as best I can; I realize my troubles are not as bad as others.
What I am going through is relevant, however. I matter, and my feelings matter. I just need to figure out what I want to do with myself. I am not trying to find anyone or date anyone; I have some things I personally need to work on before I try to date again.
I would talk about my feelings more here but I just feel like it doesn't matter.
