We are all born naked,cold, and oftentimes alone in this world. Sometimes we have families that attempt to nurture and protect us, and sometimes we only have whoever will take care of us for the moment. I truly believe that my parents did the best they could to prepare me for this life, but some things you have to learn and deal with on your own. No one has all of the answers; and not all answers work for everyone. It took a long time and a lot of patience for me to come out of my depression after my father passed away; I had the love of what I thought was a good woman and family support. When that relationship ended I felt dead inside and betrayed; betrayed not only by her but also by our so called friends who knew what was going on but didn't bother to tell me.
No one knows how long these hurts take to heal. There isn't always a straight answer for why bad things happen to good people. As humans we like to think we are the most intelligent creatures on the planet, but oftentimes we have to make the same mistake a few times in order to learn from it. We have to remember that hindsight is 20/20 for a reason; because we can sit and look back at a situation removed from the feelings or pressure we face at the time of the situation we are now mulling over.
It hurts when people we love lie to us. It hurts worse when they turn out to be someone or something totally different from what we thought they were. But we have to cut ourselves some slack' we are only human. We have wants, needs, fears, and insecurities. We have to go through life and face situations we were not trained for. We rely on our instincts and sometimes they are wrong. All of our experiences make us who we are; sometimes the journey to get there is paved with many successes,and sometimes there are a lot of broken promises and painful memories mixed in with it.
We weren't given manuals on how to fix broken people. Nothing was handed out during high school to help you understand that heartache takes a huge toll on your body as well as your spirit. The world is full of evils that our parents never had to face. We are all just human and we have to learn and adapt in order to not just survive, but to live. Give yourself some credit for making it this far. Then Give yourself some time to heal. In time you will, and be a better person for it. I have faith.
******PS: Even if we were given manuals, how many men would have read it?